This blogging thing does not really cross my mind but I thought that this is the best way to express my feelings because I can’t express this kind of things to my parents because I think it’s kinda embarassing…I wold just like to say that starting from 9 years old up to present I’m fat
So this is my first blog entry so I’m just going to tell a story about me. When I was in my grade school I tried courting a girl and my first try was a success and I did that for only 15 minutes. But that same night I felt bad because I just tried courting but I don’t really love her so what I did is that I broke up with her. I don’t know if that was right. That happened during our Christmas vacation so I just did the courting through texting. So when we got back to school of course the initial reaction happened. She got mad at me. So the whole school knew about what happened. The girl doesn’t look bad but not beautiful much also. The courting thing made my self-confidence to boost. So as time pass by I tried courting girls for 2 years up to our graduation but not at the same time of course. And none of them become my girlfriend.
When I transferred school when I was high school I thought that this may be a new start of my love life and the end of like jinx in love. I always try to court a girl just through text messages and not in personal. My first love in high school was Annegi but the thing is she has a boyfriend so I have to wait. While waiting, I made friends with her up to the point that our relationship became like a brother-sister type. When she broke up with her boyfriend I definitely asked her if I could court her and she allowed me. When she allowed me to court her I thought that it is just one step away from being her boyfriend. But no, it’s a BIG NO. I noticed later on that I have no chance and she almost spent all her time with other guy courting her. So I decided to stop what I was doing. So my first year in high school is loveless still..
Now it’s already summer and I fell inlove again with another girl named Racyly. But she also had a boyfriend. So what I did is I used the same technique as what I did to Annegi. We became so close all summer long. Before the start of classes she said that she broke up with her boyfriend. So I thought that was the right time to ask her if I could court her. So I sent her message about the courting thing but she turned me down because she said that she just treat me as a friend and not as a lover. So I started my Second year loveless still.
So at the start of classes I met new girls and of course what I did is I asked them if I could court them. The first girl I asked is Rizzy and then I said that it’s just a joke but I think she took it seriously. The next one is MC but she turned me down again because she said that she have to be in the right age to do that kind of things. So I asked other girls like Raia, Nina, and etc.. So the news was spread to the girls that I just making fun of them. But the real thing is that I really love but if they turn me down of course I will choose other right?.. So the last one I asked to court is Laurice. But the news have wings and Laurice thought that I’m just joking so what happened is that she doesn’t took it seriously even though I’m serious. And what happened is that I got turned down again.
As days pass by I returned loving MC again and said my feelings to her through text message. But after that I realized that I shouldn’t told that to her because maybe I’m just shocked or something. So when I knew the new number of Laurice I began to love her again. So I had a dilemma if whom should I love?.. MC or Laurice. I’m saying to both of them that I love them both but it’s true and I’m not fooling them.
Remember Annegi??.. When her birthday came it sent me a sign to love Laurice because MC said to me that “Today is the birthday of your love.” so the thought came to me that maybe she doesn’t want me to love her anymore. So I focused my love to Laurice. But I forgot to say that she also had a boyfriend. But I still continued loving her. At this point Laurice and her boyfriend are having a hard time at their relationship. And I made this blog for Laurice
So let’s get back to the point
DOES BEING FAT HAD A BIG CONNECTION TO LOVE A PERSON?????